A peculiar attitude or bias; eccentric turn or bent of mind; eccentricity.
I have intentionally changed the look and theme of this site - yoga is still very much a part of my path and will color the posts here but I write from where I'm at and where I'm at right now is a place of uncertainty and confusion.
I am unsettled and raw and exposed and I attribute these feelings to coming to know myself in a relationship - with the scrutinizing eyes of the other standing next to me - wondering if I can ever measure up.
Everything about my practice, all that brought me peace before her has failed to sustain me and I need a new way of being, a new practice - on and off the mat.
How will I put myself back together if we can't pull through?
How will I breathe again?
How will my feet ever walk the same path knowing hers were there at some other space in time?
I am so fallible.
I am ashamed and bruised from the inside and desperate to feel good about myself again...to feel as if I am actually capable of holding someone up...
...too bad it wasn't her.