If I concede, I might actually have what it is I so desperately desire - but if I do, I fear the impending loss.
So...I live in the wake of one of the most difficult decisions of my life - you wanted your voice Tina...
...I guess you got it.
I give to the point of breaking me - a vice I have perfected over a lifetime of pleasing. I forgive those that I love and care about SO EASILY and I'm not sure where that comes from but I fear it comes from a place of minimizing my own feelings and emotional well-being.
At least it has lately.
Such a shame. Such a god damn shame. But a shame I'm willing to bear in the name of self-preservation.