Monday, August 9, 2010

Why I (must) do what I do...

If I concede, I might actually have what it is I so desperately desire - but if I do, I fear the impending loss.

So...I live in the wake of one of the most difficult decisions of my life - you wanted your voice Tina...

...I guess you got it.

I give to the point of breaking me - a vice I have perfected over a lifetime of pleasing. I forgive those that I love and care about SO EASILY and I'm not sure where that comes from but I fear it comes from a place of minimizing my own feelings and emotional well-being.

At least it has lately.

Such a shame. Such a god damn shame. But a shame I'm willing to bear in the name of self-preservation.

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